I went to the doctor this past Friday and my bone is 90% healed which means I can walk on my heal in my torture chamber of a bootcast. The doctor told my husband to take my crutches away this time so I have to put weight on my heal. This helps the bone continue to heal.
I was terrified and it took all my strength to trust that my bone would not break and put weight on my heal. So far so good. I do have swelling that occurs and I simply elevate my foot for at least an hour. I try not to overdue it. My tendons are so sore from lack of use. I wake up and they are so stiff I have to message them to get my ankle to bend. Its exhausting!
I will go back to the doctor in about 12 days and then I get to get rid of the bootcast! Yay! So happy.
Healing Continues
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Well I am now 4 months into healing from a bunionectomy w/ toe straightening. I would have been healed sooner but I broke a bone before it was finished healing. It has been 29 days since I rebroke the bone and I have been on a bone growth stimulator for 2 weeks. In two days I get to go to the doctor and see how much healing has taken place. I feel like I am never going to walk again! My leg is so withered. My toe does not move. I am so depressed I wish I never did this. Holding your leg up for going on 3 months is no fun. Cant wait till I can walk and sleep without propping my leg in the air. So scared I will break it again :(
Is It Meant To Be?
Saturday, August 23, 2014
Romantic relationships are usually easy to manage in the beginning. Two people who really hit it off can spend so much time laughing and doing fun things together because there is no pressure in the beginning. As time goes on and the couple becomes more comfortable a pattern of everyday life can develop and that's when the work begins.
Feeling stuck in a rut? This is very common among couples in long relationships or marriage. This often leaves them asking is this all there is? Is this meant to be?
Communication is important to a healthy relationship. Telling a spouse or mate about something new that you might like to try may do the trick. Couples who aren't afraid to express their needs often get through difficult times quicker. The important thing to do is not ignore the issue.
Feeling stuck in a rut? This is very common among couples in long relationships or marriage. This often leaves them asking is this all there is? Is this meant to be?
Communication is important to a healthy relationship. Telling a spouse or mate about something new that you might like to try may do the trick. Couples who aren't afraid to express their needs often get through difficult times quicker. The important thing to do is not ignore the issue.
Prolonged Sadness
Thursday, August 7, 2014
Well I was almost healed but I tightened my bootcast strap too fast and rebroke one of my bones. I was so sad I cried. I am very tired of not being able to walk. Maybe another two months...hmmmm.
It is hard not to get depressed. I battle feelng sorry for myself by watching comedies. Helps me to forget for awhile. I love Carol Burnett, Mammas Family, the show All In The Family and also the comedy show Robin Williams Weapons Of Self Destruction. Too funny.
It is hard not to get depressed. I battle feelng sorry for myself by watching comedies. Helps me to forget for awhile. I love Carol Burnett, Mammas Family, the show All In The Family and also the comedy show Robin Williams Weapons Of Self Destruction. Too funny.
You Are Not Alone
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
I know that sometimes I can get caught up in my thoughts and feel like I am the only one who has ever felt this way. Alone, depressed, and seeing no immediate way out is a illusion that given time will pass.
Things I have done to get my mind out of the vice of negative thoughts are:
1. Allow myself to cry. I can be very strong and tend to think that crying will solve nothing. I found that in my lowest moments there is no other action I can take but to cry. I was surprised to find that with the tears and sobbing also was a release of exhausted pent up emotion.
2. Find a creative outlet to take my mind off my troubles. Writing this blog is a creative outlet. There are other ways to express thoughts, emotion, and situations. Painting, music, or other forms of artwork are great ways to expend pent up energy that can be expressed in brilliant ways. Maybe that's why we learn that most great artists were troubled people. Edgar Allen Poe certainly had his share of dark thoughts.
3. Cleaning my space around me. Feeling one way on the inside does not mean that we have to express it on the outside. That is a choice. I don't want to feel bleak inside and see bleak when I look around me so I tend to want to make my surroundings more cheerful in an attempt to focus on something cheerful and change my mood/thoughts. Replace dark curtains for lighter ones, clean the floor and nooks and crannies. This not only puts thought into action but also gives a sense of accomplishment.
4.Get out into nature. Nature is a powerful healer. Going out into a beautiful setting with greenery, water, and birds singing has a cleansing effect. My mind seems to come out of me and expand to feel the beauty of the surroundings. I can close my eyes and release into the energy of natural state of being. I don't need a reason or even a thought other than I AM. God has created me and given me free will. That thought brings me back to the realization that I have choice. That everything is a choice, just as everything is energy. I am left feeling empowered that I can make necessary adjustments, choices, and creations.
These are just a few ways I empower myself. You may have other ways which would be wonderful to hear about. Peace be with you, truth to find you, light to lead you on your way.
Things I have done to get my mind out of the vice of negative thoughts are:
1. Allow myself to cry. I can be very strong and tend to think that crying will solve nothing. I found that in my lowest moments there is no other action I can take but to cry. I was surprised to find that with the tears and sobbing also was a release of exhausted pent up emotion.
2. Find a creative outlet to take my mind off my troubles. Writing this blog is a creative outlet. There are other ways to express thoughts, emotion, and situations. Painting, music, or other forms of artwork are great ways to expend pent up energy that can be expressed in brilliant ways. Maybe that's why we learn that most great artists were troubled people. Edgar Allen Poe certainly had his share of dark thoughts.
3. Cleaning my space around me. Feeling one way on the inside does not mean that we have to express it on the outside. That is a choice. I don't want to feel bleak inside and see bleak when I look around me so I tend to want to make my surroundings more cheerful in an attempt to focus on something cheerful and change my mood/thoughts. Replace dark curtains for lighter ones, clean the floor and nooks and crannies. This not only puts thought into action but also gives a sense of accomplishment.
4.Get out into nature. Nature is a powerful healer. Going out into a beautiful setting with greenery, water, and birds singing has a cleansing effect. My mind seems to come out of me and expand to feel the beauty of the surroundings. I can close my eyes and release into the energy of natural state of being. I don't need a reason or even a thought other than I AM. God has created me and given me free will. That thought brings me back to the realization that I have choice. That everything is a choice, just as everything is energy. I am left feeling empowered that I can make necessary adjustments, choices, and creations.
These are just a few ways I empower myself. You may have other ways which would be wonderful to hear about. Peace be with you, truth to find you, light to lead you on your way.
Bootcast Torture Chamber!
Monday, June 30, 2014
I am now in my boot cast. It turns out that it is worst than the cast I had before. It is heavier and impossible to sleep in. The way I get to sleep every night is to fight to find a way to put my foot down, without causing my foot pain , and finally pass out from sheer exhaustion. I never remember falling asleep and I when I wake I pray I got enough sleep. The problem is the cast weighs between 5-10 lbs. and when I put it down it sinks into the cushion. It creates a pulling outward at the heel and this causes pain. So if it is painful to put down how does one rest? I feel like someone designed this to be a torture chamber! I finally found a way to stop the heal form sinking by placing a nonskid pad down and then on top of that putting a cushion and just placing the heel on the corner of the cushion. Why on the corner? Because there is very little material to sink into on the corner. I was sure to place something behind the cushion and nonskid pad to keep them from moving. What a process!
The heel is hard plastic on the bottom and then open on the top where your heel sits. The liner of the cast is inflatable fleece like material and it covers the foot and all the way up the leg to the knee. Everything is held on with adjustable straps.
Inflating the cast helps when you need extra support when moving around to keep the cast from slipping in the heel. Once my swelling went down I found I needed to use the extra padding pieces ,that came with the cast. to help fill in space around my heel.
This has been a long process and not only is it hard on me it is hard on my family. I am not able to do the chores I used to and so they have to pick up the slack. Also it is hard for them to see me in such discomfort. The thought that comforts me is that each day I am healing. Given time this too will pass.
The heel is hard plastic on the bottom and then open on the top where your heel sits. The liner of the cast is inflatable fleece like material and it covers the foot and all the way up the leg to the knee. Everything is held on with adjustable straps.
Inflating the cast helps when you need extra support when moving around to keep the cast from slipping in the heel. Once my swelling went down I found I needed to use the extra padding pieces ,that came with the cast. to help fill in space around my heel.
This has been a long process and not only is it hard on me it is hard on my family. I am not able to do the chores I used to and so they have to pick up the slack. Also it is hard for them to see me in such discomfort. The thought that comforts me is that each day I am healing. Given time this too will pass.
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