Bootcast Torture Chamber!

I am now in my boot cast. It turns out that it is worst than the cast I had before. It is heavier and impossible to sleep in. The way I get to sleep every night is to fight to find a way to put my foot down, without causing my foot pain , and finally pass out from sheer exhaustion. I never remember falling asleep and I when I wake I pray I got enough sleep. The problem is the cast weighs between 5-10 lbs. and when I put it down it sinks into the cushion. It creates a pulling outward at the heel and this causes pain. So if it is painful to put down how does one rest? I feel like someone designed this to be a torture chamber! I finally found a way to stop the heal form sinking by placing a nonskid pad down and then on top of that putting a cushion and just placing the heel on the corner of the cushion. Why on the corner? Because there is very little material to sink into on the corner. I was sure to place something behind the cushion and nonskid pad to keep them from moving. What a process!
The heel is hard plastic on the bottom and then open on the top where your heel sits. The liner of the cast is inflatable fleece like material and it covers the foot and all the way up the leg to the knee. Everything is held on with adjustable straps.
Inflating the cast helps when you need extra support when moving around to keep the cast from slipping in the heel. Once my swelling went down I found I needed to use the extra padding pieces ,that came with the cast. to help fill in space around my heel.
This has been a long process and not only is it hard on me it is hard on my family. I am not able to do the chores I used to and so they have to pick up the slack. Also it is hard for them to see me in such discomfort. The thought that comforts me is that each day I am healing. Given time this too will pass.

Happy Tomorrow

Tomorrow I get to go back to the doctor to get my stitches out and get rid of this heavy cast. It has been a miserable experience to say the least. I am going to get a boot and I still won't be able to put weight on my foot. That's o.k. cause I am getting around much better now. I am able to make my own coffee and breakfast. The gross part is after not being able to get my lower leg wet or wash my foot it stinks. Also the leg hair has of course grown. Yuck! That is the first thing I am going to do is wash my foot and shave my leg.

Enduring Through Disappointment

Sometimes I start a new project just to realize that its not as great or grand as I thought. The art does not turn out like I imagined it or the feedback is not what I wanted it to be.
I know I am not the only one who has felt disappointment. There are many venues for disappointment to occur.
In business we might feel disappointed over our return on investment results. In a relationship we might feel disillusioned with our significant other. Maybe they were not who we thought they were when we first entered the relationship.
Everything grows and develops with time. The question is should we endure through the disappointment in hopes things will improve or should we just quit and move in another direction?

Past & Present

This morning I am up early. Everyone else is asleep. Too much time to think is not always a good thing. My mind is bringing up past hurts, betrayals. The past comes into my present and creates hurt as if it happened yesterday.
I take this as a sign that I have not dealt with the past and fully let it go. I think working on being the best I can be in my present and future is the only way I am going to feel strong enough to let go.
What once was is no more.
Insecurities work on my self esteem and tear at it with unrelenting vigor. Yet I know that they stem from my own poor opinion of myself. That stems from a belief that if I was prettier, better, or good enough I would not have been betrayed. Not true.
Each person has their own path, choices, lessons to learn on this earth and we do this through experiences we choose to have. We cannot control what someone else does or is going to do. The people in our lives are our co-creators. Be gentle with the choices you make because they effect everyone around you.

Vision Boards & Manifesting

We are all creators. The details in our life is our creation. I enjoy putting conscious thought into manifesting what I want to accomplish. I know that somewhere in the future I am already there doing what I want to do.
It is a part of the law of attraction. To make it fun and boost the energy of intention I create a vision board. The energy of creativity that flows while making a vision board can be minimal or intense depending on the individual making it. Don't worry about this because it does not matter how much glitter, bows, or glamour you add to your vision board, its the intention you put forth that counts. Be specific. If you prefer to draw simply draw yourself doing, receiving, having, ect, that which you desire. Its ok if it is just stick figures. If you prefer to use pictures you can do that too. The board acts as a conscious manifestation and reminder of your desire to manifest your future goal.
Once finished simple place it in an area where you will see it. Even if you stuck it in a closet you would see it when you opened the closet and it would remind you of your goal. Once that reminder is with you as you start your day you will be conscious of any opportunities you come across to help you achieve your goal. Pay attention! Take action!

Stormy Morning

Today I was awakened to crashes and flashes of thunder and lightening. The thought of getting caught in a tornado scared me since I am on crutches due to my surgery. If I had to hurry and get into a closet that would be a fail on the hurry part. I feel like a sloth slowly and sluggishly humping along. Fortunately for me the storm has passed and I am left with the awe of how beautiful this world is. There are grey clouds mixed with billowing white clouds blowing by in the wind. As I watch I see vultures riding the wind currents and imagine how that must feel.
I am struck by the thought that whatever we focus on becomes our reality. I then take a look at my life and try to find applicable instances and the realization flood gates are open. I see instances or moments in time where I could have applied myself so much more and still can. So I am learning from my past to be better in my future. Another thought appears and says, we are limited beings and we cannot see everything happening all at once so give yourself a break. Don't stay in the muck of regret but step out onto the stage of new possibilities.

56 Breakfast Crepe Recipes | MrBreakfast.com

Just thought these looked delicious!



56 Breakfast Crepe Recipes | MrBreakfast.com 

Suspect Occurances

I live on the outskirts of town. We have a horse and kept a harness on him to take him out of his corral while being able to control him.  Now we have realized that we are going to have to remove his harness because someone keeps cutting it off of him. If they don't agree with it being left on him why don't they just stop on by and discuss it like adults? Even if they don't want to discuss it they could have just removed it without destroying it. Maybe its a neighbor, I don't really know at this time.

The neighbors next to us moved because their house was destroyed by a tornado and they were living in a trailer. Instead of rebuilding they chose to move because they said the county here is corrupt. Well they left the abandoned trailer behind. Yesterday night we heard glass breaking inside the trailer and knew someone had trespassed on their property. We called the cops and they caught two kids inside the trailer. I guess with school being out some kids get bored and without proper supervision they are left to find there own form of entertainment. The night after this happened my dogs collar disappeared.  I am just glad nothing has happened to her. I really am feeling the need for security devices such as cameras and proper fencing. Our cars were broken into the first year we moved in, right before Christmas. At least that has not happened again. Keeping my fingers crossed that this area will show improvement.

Affordable Nook Books I Enjoyed Reading

Green Lake

Demon Days

A Spirited Manor

Shadowbrook Manor

Looking Forward To Friday

I am looking forward to Friday. We are celebrating Fathers Day early on Friday by going out to dinner. I don't know where we will go but it will be nice to get out somewhere besides just to a doctors appt. I will actually have a reason to do my hair and makeup! Little spritz of perfume (Glowing by Jennifer Lopez) and I will be just radiant.
Best to eat lite, maybe I will order a simple chicken salad. It is definitely  not the time to consume too many calories since my mobility has been limited by my foot surgery. Crutch on!
For anyone looking to eat lite and delicious here is a recipe I found on allrecipes.com Fab Summer Blackened Chicken

Recovering

I am now 5 days out of surgery and am finally just getting up and around. My family has been wonderful throughout this ordeal. I am getting pretty good on crutches but it is tiring. Its very apparent how I took my mobility for granted. When you suddenly cannot do 90% of the things you used to life gets pretty unbearable so now I am forcing myself to get up and do the little things I can do. This helps me to not focus on my foot so much which was driving me crazy.
As part of the treatment I was prescribed a pain killer which I made me so sick I couldn't hold anything down. So on the third day I took myself off the pain meds and I luckily the pain was over. It did not return, what a relief!!
Now I cant wait to get this partial cast off. Its heavy and makes getting around even more difficult. I wont be getting it off for another two weeks and three days. They will also remove my stitches at this time.
Well until then I will be watching television and trying to find productive ways to pass the time. Letting the dogs out, cleaning the kitchen counters, daily shower, fixing my breakfast and lunch, ect. How will I survive such excitement?

Something To Smile About

My day has something to smile about. I was someones good taste. Thier better half. Someone chose me to spend the rest of their life with. That is something to smile about. I have clean sock this morning because I chose to wash them yesterday. That is something to smile about. I chose positive thoughts today and those thoughts made me smile. I thought of the adorable way my daughter gets ready for school. That made me smile. My heart is full and overflowing. That makes me smile.
Where ever you are and whatever your doing I hope you have something to smile about.

My Upcoming Surgery

I am going to be having surgery on Thursday. I am the first surgery of the day. I am feeling nervous and scared. I have never had surgery. Luckily it is a quick procedure since I am just getting my bunion fixed. Yeah, I know , gross. If I don't post for awhile after Thursday you know why.